An Ode to Dreams
Dreams, like clouds, are voluminous, fluffy,
and just out of reach.
A life of adventure, inner peace,
and creativity I seek.
My dreams have changed and molded
over the years.
To fit who I am, for I am a person changed
through toils and tears.
My dreams are bigger, more brazen,
and more bold.
A testament to the woman I've become
now that I'm old.
There's something to be said for dreams, and I'm not talking about the ones that visit us in our sleep. I'm talking of the collective set of hopes and aspirations we have about our lives. Over the last five years, my dreams have changed drastically from where they were six years ago, and, over the last five years, have become specific to the person I've grown into over the last five years. I feel that I've finally reached my true self...the person I was meant to be. I guess you could say that's akin to finally, and fully, growing up.
You see, I'm a late bloomer, a fact I've talked about more than once. Because of this, I've achieved a sense of self in my mid-life, not earlier. I'm not sure why this is. I've thought about it quite a bit, and I'm not sure I can pinpoint any one reason or thing that might have contributed to this. It just is what it is. However, having said that, I think one thing might be more indicative than any other: my desire to stay young. By this, I don't mean that I actually wanted to stay young, in fact, I prefer growing older. Rather, I think that I truly believed that in order to "grow up" I had to toss aside all the things about my youth that I still embraced: metal music, child-like curiosity & wonderment, and a firm desire to do things in my own time. I don't, though, I just have to incorporate them into my life to fit it better.
The last five years have been some of my best years in many ways. I've truly come into myself over the last five years, and have come out the other end as the person I want to be. Sure, there is some fine-tuning to be done, but it's all pretty minor. It's my dreams that hold me hostage and mock me. "What does she mean?" you might ask. Well, I'll tell you: You see...my dreams are big. Really big. I guess it's a testament to who I am that my dreams are as big as life as I am. I'm antsy. I'm ready to live my dreams. But, no matter how hard it is to wait, my dreams will still be there when I'm able to achieve them.
I'm just impatient.
What are your dreams? What inspires you? Drop a comment down below, and let me know! I'd love to hear from you.
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