Too Many What-Ifs
Lately, I've been plagued with a case of the What-Ifs. What if I had done this instead of that? What if I had done that instead of this? What if I had moved here? What if I had known about this when I was young, where would I be now? The list...it is endless.
I blame this case of the What-Ifs on my dreamer nature. I'm prone to bouts of wild imagination and flights of fancy. If there's a hint of reckless abandon and adventure to it, I'm probably going to be interested in it to the point of obsession.
Where does this bout of What-Ifs come from? What is the driving force behind them? Well, if I'm being honest, it's a result of two things: regret and a fleeting sense of time. There's nothing like getting older to realize that your time here isn't endless. When you're young, you mistakenly think you have plenty of time to do the things you want to do. Well, I'm here to tell you this isn't always the case.
Does this mean it's too late for me to finally fulfill my lifelong dreams and goals? Absolutely not, but it does mean that I have less time to pursue them...to make them a reality. It's this realization that probably spurs on these episodes of the What-Ifs. With less time to reach goals and dreams, I think the pressure is on. Granted, it's self-induced, but just as relevant.
Do you ever suffer from a case of the What-Ifs? Let me know in the comments below.
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