Finding Peace from Within
I don't need to spend a large chunk of time rehashing all the posts I made over the past year and a half about the deeply personal, internal, struggles I faced. What I'd rather do, then, is explain where I am at this point in time as it relates to all of that.
I went through what I could only figure, for the longest time, was something akin to a mid-life crisis fueled by hormones. While that was partly true, what I discovered a few months back was that what was causing most of my grief boiled down to a couple of things:
1. Trauma that was deeply buried.
2. Unhappiness with the way my life was.
Now, like I'm not going to rehash all the posts I have previously made, I'm also not going to get into details about 1 and 2. Instead, I'm all about being positive. This is significant, not just because I want to be more positive, but because I am more positive. The reason for this is that since I was able to get to the root of my problems, I was able to deal with them appropriately. The end result is that I FINALLY feel like myself. I also feel great mentally and ready to thrust myself back into the life (or at least the parts I enjoy the most) I left behind for the past year and a half.
On the writing front then, I am fully back. Although, I'm back in a different way. What does this mean? Well, I'm working on a brand new book (details about that will come later), I've tackled my social media in a new way, and I've begun writing for a local online metal review/interview mag. Combine all this with the good things that I have changed in my life this year (new job, more weight loss, being in better physical health, and some new things at home) and I'm ecstatic about how things are shaping up.
The best thing beyond all this, however? I have an inner peace that I haven't felt in...well, maybe ever. Most of my stressors now are daily pains in my ass, nothing more.
So, that's where I am now. I'm back...but I'm a little different than I was before. Thankfully.